Are there really people in this world who don’t feel bad when they know that they’ve purposely been left out of something? I would like to meet one of these people and just ask, “How?” More than that, I would like to know why I’m bothered by being left out of something that I probably wouldn’t have gone to in the first place. Really, why in the world does this bother me? I suppose it’s nice being asked and feeling included. But what does that matter when I don’t particularly want to be included in anything with that person? Case in point: a friend had a dinner last night and I wasn’t invited. We’re not BFF’s but I thought we were friends. The part that bothers me is that I did find out about the dinner when one of the invitees said something about going, assuming I was going as well. She felt really bad after she realized I had no idea what she was talking about. I felt awkward too… but mostly I felt sort of annoyed. Why wasn’t I invited?
Then, come to find out, the one having the dinner party make a comment like, “I heard Kelli found out about this. What did she say?” What the eff do you think I said? I’m standing there with a friend, realizing that I wasn’t special enough to another friend to make the cut… but you can’t very well whine and cry about it. So I said, “Oh. Whatever.” My confidencial source said dinner-friend seemed a weird mixture of relieved and bothered- like maybe she wanted the whining and crying.
Does this ever stop? Or is it just me?
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P.S. I almost forgot to write today. Shame on me. But obviously I remembered. Day 8- smacked down!