Not complaining but…

I love to say that, or hear it even- I’m not complaining, but… Because you are complaining.  Or I’m complaining.  Whatever.  Some of you know that Dave and I struggled to get pregnant.  We were trying for quite a while before it happened and because of that, part of me feels like I should appreciate or accept everything that comes with being knocked up.  But the more I think about it, the more I have to disagree with myself.  There are things that suck about being pregnant and I don’t have to ‘like’ them just because it was a bit of a journey to get here.

Thing #1 that sucks: I have a sinus infection today.  My doctor, who might be the funniest OB/GYN in the world, is also, uh… not as thorough as a doctor would be in the States.  I’m fairly certain that some things he does would land him in jail, or at least court, if he lived in the US… or anywhere else really.  I really do appreciate his laid-back approach to pregnancy.  He laughs off things that probably should be laughed off and will just prescribe things for me based on symptoms I describe.  The only real negative to this is that I feel a little silly asking him a lot of questions.  I told him I was having breathing issues a few weeks ago and he blamed it on anxiety.  I didn’t feel anxious- I felt like I couldn’t breathe.  But he listened to my lungs, said I was fine, and told me to calm down.  At my last appointment, I had a cough and my white blood cell count (is that right?) said I had an infection.  He listened, said I was fine, and prescribed some cough medicine that hasn’t helped.  Now, two weeks later, I’m still coughing AND I have a sinus infection and I don’t really want to bother him.  SO- where is all this going?  Well, the internet is great, huh?  You ask it a question, it gives you a million answers.  I have some Tylenol Cold and Sinus.  I ask the internet if I can take it and the internet says YES and NO!  Equally.  “Yes, my doctor told any Tylenol product was fine!”  “NO!  Only regular Tylenol is okay!”  So I took some regular Tylenol.  And my head doesn’t hurt as bad as before, but it hurts more than if I could take sinus medicine. 

Thing #2 that sucks: The bloat.  I know, attractive to think about, right?  Well, it happens and it sucks.  Right now, I couldn’t suck in if I wanted to.  And none of my clothes are comfortable.  And I don’t look cute and pregnant- I just look fat.  And feel fat.

Thing #3 that sucks:  The exhaustion.  My friends were right- there is nothing like the exhaustion that comes with being pregnant.  I’ve always loved my sleep and will often choose going to bed over other, more fun activities.  But this is ridiculous!  Trying to keep my eyes open past 9:00pm… forget about it!  It won’t happen!  And if I do too much during the day, i.e. more than just school, I’m done for.  Done.For.

Do not get me wrong.  I am over-the-moon excited to be pregnant.  But that does not meant that I have to love every aspect of it.  And I don’t. 

So there.


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